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Below you will find the first round of songs that have been posted online. A lot of these are my favorites... hence the reason they're being included upfront.

To the right of each song is a space where I've shared some behind-the-song information. Maybe about the ones who inspired the song, where I wrote it, etc.

Enjoy,
J

Click on a song title to jump to its location on this page. These titles are listed here in alphabetical order. However, the songs on the page are ordered by date.

464
Allow Me This**
Almost Valentine
Because of You (A Blind Man Could See)
Change My Mind
Come Let Me Love You
Communion
Damn
Days
Easy
Filling Time
Fishbowl
Georgia Dream
Get Home to Me
Get Through Goodbye
He Never Knew
Here
I Don't Mind
I Want To Be With You
I Want To Say I Love You
If We're Over
In To You

Last Love Song
The Lesson
My Sin
One Day**
Pocket of My Heart
Reason
Remember This
Second Hardest Thing
Someone Else's Arms (Somewhere)
Sweet Dreams
The One Who's Crazy About You
Think About You
Tidal Wave
Time to Call it Love
To Say Goodbye
What You Do To My Heart
Waiting
You Remind Me

Parental Adevisory: Explicit Content
Note: Lyrics marked with two asterisks (**) may contain offensive lyrics.

Jason Goes Swimming

 
Because of You (A Blind Man Could See)
5/7/00, 5/16/00

Verse 1
A blind man could see
How much I love you
But it doesn't matter
Doesn't matter at all
If you can't see
If you won't catch me should I fall
You don't see

Chorus
That because of you
I feel every moment I live
Because of you
I have nothing more to give
Than what I've given to you
I give it all to you
Because of you

Verse 2
A deaf man could hear
This song I sing
But it doesn't matter
Won't matter in the end
If you can't hear
If you won't wade through the 'might've beens'
You don't hear

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Time To Call It Love
5/16/00, 5/22/00

Verse 1
Like everything in movies
Like every book I've ever read
You brought to life each picture
Running through my head

Verse 2
The way you walked to me
Feeling your lips touching mine
How it made me crazy inside
Tells me that it's finally time

Chorus
It's time to fall in love
Throw caution to the wind
Let love begin
Baby, it's time to call it love
Even if we don't say out loud, just yet
It shouldn't be a secret
Leave it simple, like a prayer sent up above,
Baby, it's time to call it love

Verse 3
Each move in slow motion
Speaking volumes with your eyes
Tomorrow could easily be today
Let go and spill the surprise

Verse 4
Baby, how you touch me
We're already so good together
We'll keep it exactly like this
If it scares you to say forever

Chorus

Bridge
So don't hold off, don't stand too far away
Stay close, there's something left to say
Not all wishes are granted if left unheard
Call it what it is, let's say the words

Chorus

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Pocket of My Heart
5/22/00 Verse 1
I hear your voice, you sing to me
I feel your arms, you dance with me
Though I'm alone
In another hotel room
In another city not my own
This crazy life
Steals our time
Though miles from your touch
Your still mine

Chorus
I keep your words always close
In the pocket of my heart
To remind me of you
Whenever we're apart
Every minute away from your arms
Is a thousand lifetimes I don't get to live
So I keep the melody you always hum and
How you whisper my name
All the things I miss the most
I keep them close
Every moment we're apart
In the pocket of my heart

Verse 2
I feel you lips, kissing sweetly
I feel your smile, deep inside of me
Close to my heart
Making me smile
Touching me when we're apart
This crazy life
Steals our time
Though miles from your touch
Your still mine

Chorus

Bridge
Each day is a sea of strange faces
In a million different places
But your face is the only one I want to see
It's the sound of your voice
Though miles away
That brings you to me

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The One Who's Crazy About You
5/22/00

Verse 1
In any crowded room
You can find me
I could walk on water
If you were lost at sea
Balance my check book
Program my VCR
Because of you
Because of who you are

Chorus
I'm the one
The one who's crazy about you
Simply crazy about you
I'm the one
Who hangs on your every word
Simply crazy about you
I'm the one
The one who would wake up
Glad to be loving you

Verse 2
At the end of the day
I dream of you
Oh, the love we could make
My heart bleeds true blue
Relax in five o'clock traffic
Chocolate has no calories
Because of you
Baby, can't you see

Chorus

Bridge
Do my taxes and get money back
Finally diagram sentences
Actually apply calculus to my life
You can go anywhere
In this whole wide world
When you make it back this way
I'll still be the one who's crazy
Absolutely
Crazy about you

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Days
5/25/00, 8/10/00

Verse 1
It would be a lie if I said
I don't count the days
That it doesn't matter
That there are a dozen ways
To Sunday or to loving you
I know by heart that
It's been a hundred and sixteen days since we met
Forty three since I told you my secret
That I'm in love with you
So in love with you

Chorus
Praying you would be mine
When you're in love
There are different ways to measure time
It took only seconds to know
I had a crush on you
Less than a day
To fall in love with you
It will take a lifetime to try and forget you
And, I don't remember making the choice
The distance won't be nearly enough
To forget your kiss, forget your touch
To forget your smile, forget your voice

Verse 2
It would be a lie if I said
I don't count the days
That any of this is easy
That I don't wish you'd stay
Anywhere near my heart
It's been only seven since said you were leaving
Forty-three since I told you my secret
I'm in love with you
So in love with you

Bridge
Eleven since I saw your face and you kissed me
Six since I heard your voice
Thirty-five since I fell for you
Not even one has passed without you crossing my mind

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You Remind Me
5/31/00, 8/18/00

Verse 1
It's been a while
You still smile the same
I must admit, being here
Feels a little strange
I thought we walked away from this
What you say is different
Than what you say with your kiss

Chorus
Looking at you,
Looking at me
You remind me of someone I used to love
Someone I fell for completely
I see the one who stole
My heart and soul
Your eyes and touch are so familiar
You remind me of someone I used to love

Verse 2
How long has it been
Once I knew you so well
Maybe I'm just afraid
But time will tell
There were days when I dreamed of this
I thought I'd let it go
Then I remember your sweet kiss

Bridge
When I'm in your arms I can remember all the times I loved you
But can't recall the reason you went away
What we both lacked and why you couldn't stay
Back where we started
Can we love again
Once again, can you be the one I love

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One Day
8/3/00, 8/9/00

Verse 1
One day, in a strange city all alone
I'll cross your mind
You may even pick up the telephone
But it will only ring and ring
I won't be home
I'll be out dancing the night away
And chances are not alone
I may let go and let my heart stray
I may think of you
I may just say

Chorus
This is my life and I'm doing just fine
My life
I'm fucking it up
I'm pressing my luck
But this is my life
My life
I get wrong
But oh, how good it feels when I get it right
In my life
My life

Verse 2
Right now, I'm not gonna cry
The milk is spilt
I don't care about all the when's and why's
I'm gonna be just fine, just fine
Is it worth another try
Baby, I just couldn't say
It's your turn to cry
This time I'm the one who won't stay
I may think of you
I may just say

Chorus

Bridge
One day you may even pass me on the street
And hope I look your way
For the sake of my heart
I hope I can find the words to say

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Someone Else's Arms (Somewhere)
8/7/00

Verse 1
The moments that hurt the most
Are when I think of you
In someone else's arms
In their heart
That's what stops me
That's the hardest part

Verse 2
When I'm not expecting it
I'm suddenly seeing you
In someone else's arms
In their mind
That's what keeps me
That's when I find

Chorus
Somewhere
Someone's saying, "I love you."
Somewhere
You are saying a name that isn't mine
Somewhere
Wrapped in someone else's arms
You are where you want to be
But that somewhere
Isn't with me
It's another place and time
And someone else's arms
Aren't mine

Verse 3
The moments that hurt the most
Are when I think of you
In someone else's arms
In their heart
That's what stops me
That the hardest part

Chorus

Bridge
The nights that betray me
Are when I dream of you
While I sleep in someone else's arms

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Change My Mind
8/14/00, 8/16/00

Verse 1
I don't love you
Don't want to be with you for the rest of time
But when you look at me that way
Baby, you could change my mind

Verse 2
I don't need you
I would never be known as the romantic kind
But when your read my dreams
Baby, you could change my mind

Chorus
I've got a thousand hang ups
Can't cancel the subscription to all my issues
I'm hard to read
Harder to believe
I'm the difficult kind
But maybe, just maybe
I'd be worth the ride
Baby, you could change my mind

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To Say Goodbye
8/14/00, 8/18/00

Verse 1
I knew I'd probably fight for words
I knew I'd cry
I didn't come here to love you
I came to say goodbye
As hard as we tried
As much as tears me up inside

Chorus
Goodbye
I love you too much to stay
Goodbye
This is the only way I know
To get my heart out of the way
Goodbye
Goodbye

Verse 2
I knew I'd want to take you in my arms
I can't say why
I didn't come to make it all right
I came to say goodbye
As hard as we tried
As much as tears me up inside

Chorus

Bridge
I'll hate you if you let me walk away
But I know there's no way I can stay
This time I don't want you to hold me when I cry
When I say goodbye

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What You Do To My Heart
10/21/00,10/23/00

Verse 1
You consume my nights and my days
I picture you in a thousand different places
In a thousand different ways
I feel you deep inside
Running through the rooms of my heart
Making me feel alive

Chorus
I don't have all the answers
And I don't even know the questions
So I can just take it for everything it is
And everything it can't be
Though I won't weigh it against forever
I can still dream of us together
What you do to my heart
What you do to my heart

Verse 2
I couldn't get out from under your spell
If I wanted to and believe me, I don't want to
So, baby, what the hell
We'll both lose a little sleep
I'll give away what I have to and win what I can
As long as it's you I can keep

Chorus

Bridge
I want you to know
I truly, honestly, completely love what you do to my heart
I need you to see how
I absolutely, positively love what you do to my heart

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Sweet Dreams
10/23/00, 10/25/00

Verse 1
Fly away, dear one
Fly high, my love
Curl beneath the sheets
Pretending they are my arms
Let Sleep take you in her charms

Chorus
Sweet dreams
Ride the wind
Hug the moon
Tomorrow will come
Will come too soon
Sweet dreams
Sweet dreams

Verse 2
Fly away, dear one
Fly high, my love
Breathe in time with me
Rest your head by my heart
Closing your eyes is just the start (of)

Bridge
In the back of my heart
I'm jealous of your dreams
For being closer than the air you breathe
Which means they get to be closer than me
I can watch you sleep and pray
My smile finds its way
Into your dreams

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464
10/25/00

Verse 1
You know that I know
You are always just a phone call away
But sometimes that isn't enough
To get me through the day

Verse 2
I've got you, you've got me
You're not next door but it's not L.A.
But sometimes that isn't enough
To get me through the day

Chorus
It isn't much of a consolation
But I guess it will have to do
I can sleep a little better knowing
I'm only 464 miles away from you
It doesn't bring much satisfaction
Like winning second place
At least I know I'm not losing and
I'm only 464 miles from seeing your face
464 is the reality, is what's true
But so is how I feel
And I want to get to you

Verse 3
Your heart and my heart
Seem to know each other pretty well
But the distance thing is tough
Only time will tell

Verse 4
You're there and I'm here
Trading lives and stories with the mail
And the distance thing gets tough
But time will tell

Chorus

Bridge
I want more time, more laughs, more dreams
I just want more
That when I realize 464
Is just a number and what can a number do
It can't stop me from wanting to get to you

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Georgia Dream
10/29/00, 10/30/00

Verse 1
A song sleeping in an old magnolia tree
A gentle southern wind finds you with me
In the Georgia moonlight
Where the evening mist
Makes every kiss
Just ours
This is just ours

Chorus
Whatever takes to get there, baby
Let the end justify the means
Cause I canŐt wait to kiss you
And live your Georgia dream

Verse 2
An empty street, the soft glow of a lamppost
Being this close is exactly what I love the most
In the cool night air
Silent in the evening mist
We steal a kiss
Just us
This is just us

Chorus

Bridge
Wide awake, holding your hand
Or fast asleep in your arms, oh, sweet lover
In every second of a dream
There are a million things to discover
I want to see it all with you
I want to live it all with you
When your Georgia dream comes true

Chorus

Ending
One day
We'll stumble upon your Georgia dream
It will take us by surprise
And I can pull you close to me
It will only grow more real when we close our eyes

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I Want To Say I Love You
10/30/00, 10/31/00

Verse 1
I want to say I love you
Even if you're not ready to hear it
Even if you're heart doesn't feel the same
If I can't say I love you
It is what I mean when I ask about the weather
Ask about your day or just whisper your name

Verse 2
I want to say I love
But I don't want to scare your heart
But I want you to know I feel like I'm home
If I can't say I love you
It is what I mean when I say I love your laugh,
Ask what you're thinking or let silence fall on the phone

Chorus
There are moments
There are breaths
There are heartbeats
When 'I love you' feels like the only words to say
The moments will slip away
The breaths will pass
The heartbeats won't last
I want to say I love you
Because I do

Verse 3
I want to say I love
I want it to echo through your life
Should I just wait 'til your lost in sleep
When I say I love you
The world won't stop, time won't stand still
It will be a quiet prayer, a promise I swear to keep

Bridge
To leave it unsaid would be wrong
I could hide it in a song
I can sing it to the heavens
Or cry it into my pillow
I want to say I love you
I want you to know

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If We're Over
4/4/01, 4/9/01, 4/12/01

Verse 1
From where you're standing
I can't tell if you're walking in or out of my life
From the way I'm crying
I don't know if we're over or still trying to get it right

Chorus
If we're over
I need us to be over
You can't ask where I was last night
We can be over
If we're over
You can't guess if I'm lonely, even if you get it right
If we're over
Then we're over

Verse 2
From the way you're talking
Little has changed but it can't stay the same
From the way I'm leaving
All I know is I have nothing left to give or gain

Bridge
I think if we face the music
We both know this is the end
I think if I just hum the music
I know one day we can be just friends
But, love, that day can't be tomorrow
Not even next week
It may be a while before I can speak
Of how I love you
Without loving you

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Reason
4/9/01, 4/13/01

Verse 1
Please walk away
Just walk away
Lie and find a reason not to stay
Tell me you never felt
Half of the feelings running through my heart
Tell me the idea of "us" is impossible
That would be start

Chorus
I need a reason
Not to love you
For some reason
You not loving me
Isn't reason enough
To keep me from
Loving you

Verse 2
Please don't try
Don't even try
To find the right words to say goodbye
Just close your eyes
The eyes I never understood and misread
The blue eyes that tell me now
It was all in my head

Bridge
Tell me I dreamt every touch
Tell me you regret every kiss
Say this is the end, you won't miss me that much
You won't miss me at all, I won't cross your mind
No matter the distance or time

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The Lesson
4/9/01

Verse 1
My teacher
You were like a teacher
And my heart learned the lesson well
The same kiss that takes you to heaven
Can put you through hell

Verse 2
My love
Love that found me
When I wasn't looking beyond today
The love that took me by surprise
And then crept away

Wherever you are, if you can hear me
Will you be happy to know, the lessons aren't fading with time
And I find myself learning from new loves
From hearts far stronger than mine

Chorus
You taught me
The pain's just beginning
When the heart first breaks
You taught me
It's that quiet, piercing ache
Telling me I've got so much more to learn
When I think I've healed the hurt just grows and burns
Until the lesson's done
And it's some random heart I've won
How I'd love if it could be your heart
How I wish it was your heart

Bridge
Did I misread a lesson?
Did I take a wrong step?
Somewhere a long the way
For whatever the reason
You said you couldn't stay
Wherever you are, if you can hear me
Be happy to know, the lessons aren't fading with time
And I find myself learning from new loves
From hearts far stronger than mine
I measure every love
By the way I wished you'd love me

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He Never Knew
4/15/01, 4/16/01, 4/17/01, 5/18/01

Verse 1
For him
Tomorrow
Will be the next day
What to do when he finishes today
For me
Tomorrow
Will be another day without him here
Without him near
Without having him here with me
Without having him here with me

Chorus
He never knew I loved him
Though I tried to tell him a thousand ways
He never knew all the ways
He got inside my heart
He never knew and he may never know
How I wanted him so

Verse 2
For him
There will be
Other loves just waiting
Waiting to sleep under his sky
There will be
Others
Waiting for his perfect smile and kiss
Waiting just like this
Without for his sweet kiss like me
Without for his sweet kiss like me

Chorus

Bridge
He'll go his way and I'll go mine
And with a little time
I'll begin trying to forget
Just how well he fit
Into my nights and into my days
I'll practice different ways
To forget how it feels to not whisper his name
But my heart will remember the pain
Knowing...

Chorus

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Damn
4/17/01, 4/27/01, 5/18/01

Verse 1
Damn your smile
With all its charms
Damn your eyes
Your strong arms
Damn everything about you that I love
And can never touch
And damn me for wanting to you so much

Chorus
Damn you, baby
And damn me
Damn me for falling
So completely
Damn me, baby
And damn you
For not knowing exactly
What wanted from me
Damn you for hiding behind bisexuality
Damn you for saying we're through
Damn me for loving you
The way I do

Verse 2
Damn the sun
Caught in your hair
Damn the moon
Making me care
Damn everything I love to hate in you
All I can never touch
And damn me for loving you so much

Bridge
Damn you for being so close
But not close enough to touch
Damn me for loving you so much

Damn me for making believe
Seeing only what I wanted to see
Damn you for not loving me

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In To You
4/23/01, 4/25/01

Verse 1
I'm lost
I'm gone
Swimming
I'm so in to you
I've lost myself
No longer sure
Of what's mine
Of what's yours

Verse 2
Our bodies
You and me
Entwining
I'm so in to you
I've found myself
Where you begin
Oh so close to
Where I end

Chorus
What I'm feeling is more than passionate
What's your secret?
What are you doing to me?
How have you hidden your love in mystery?
What can I do?
I'm so in to you

Bridge
Intoxicating
Liberating

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Think About You
4/23/01, 4/25/01

Chorus
You may never know
How much I think about you
But I do
I do
I think about you

Verse 1
That smile creeps it way into every corner of my mind
Time after time after time
It's nothing but trouble
Trouble for me may make trouble for you
Because now I'm thinking about kissing you

Chorus

Verse 2
That kiss sweeps clean every room inside my heart
Start to finish, finish to start
It leaves us with everything
Until nothing's left that we can't undo
That means I'm always thinking about you

Chorus

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Filling Time
4/26/01, 4/27/01, 5/17/01

Verse 1
Without him the nights seem to just drag on
If I come over for a movie and maybe a kiss or two
Staying just long enough
For you to get sleepy which is enough for you
Another night sleeping alone
On your own

Chorus
I was dreaming of making you mine
You were just killing time
I was falling in love
You were just filling time
Filling time, killing time

Verse 2
With your smile and music I was under your spell
You made it so incredibly easy on my heart and me
Sitting that close
It is hard for me to believe you didn't see
The way I looked at you
Wanting you

Bridge
You balanced your checkbook
You did laundry
Burned CDs
Played all the songs, you didn't write for me
You cooked dinner for yourself
Poured just one glass of wine
You stood there
Watching me, watching you, using my heart to kill time

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Waiting
4/28/01, 5/10/01, 5/18/01

Verse 1
Looking at them
But they're looking away
Sometime silence says
All there is to say
What does it take for the push to come to shove?
For you to finally realize
It was a lot of things but it wasn't love
When you can finally see

Chorus
On the other side of waiting is where you learn
What's real, what's true
When the one you're waiting on
Isn't waiting on you

Verse 2
Watching your love
Doesn't mean they'll stay
Sometime waiting means
Wishing life away
How many lives or years do you spend?
Before you discover
He'll always be just a good friend
And you can finally let go
And know...

Chorus

Bridge
When you're falling in love
Sometime you fall until you hit rock bottom
You're staring up, with stars in your eyes
In that moment you realize
There are stars that never align
No matter how much you love them
No matter how much time

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Get Through Goodbye
10/7/01, 10/8/01, 11/8/01

Verse 1
You don't have to reach for me
Your eyes say everything you want to say
You're not ready to give up
You want me to stay
The times when staying would have cured it all are gone
It's okay to say it's over, we lost, and it's done
I'll be the first to say it wasn't a mistake
But I don't want to break

Chorus
What I want right now is to get through goodbye
I'm walking away this time
And I want to look stronger than I feel and I don't want to cry
We've talked our love in circles
There's no escape left to try
You may say
I'm taking your choice away
But right now I just want to get through goodbye

Verse 2
You don't have to agree with me
Your love, at times, could be stronger than mine
You're not saving face
You will one day find
Love can't always be something that you're trying to survive
It shouldn't make you die just to know that you're alive
I'll be the first to say I don't want to fight
But we never got it right

Bridge
One day we'll probably make better friends
Than we ever were as lovers
We'll get some distance between us
There'll be new loves we'll discover
But right now I can't tell you when we can talk again
I can't tell you when the silence will end

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Last Love Song
10/31/01, 11/1/01, 11/8/01, 11/20/01

Intro
This place is so quiet
I don't hear your footsteps
Don't hear your laughter in the halls
Everything is so quiet
How quickly I forget
The sound of silence when it falls

Chorus
This is the last love song
The last one I'll write about you
It's been a while
But I'm finally awake
And I'm ready to step beyond this ache
Ready to slip into something new
This is the last love song
Last love song I'll write about you

Verse 1
I love you
The words weren't always easy to say
But they always found their way
To bring us
Closer to each other than we ever thought we be
In tender moments when you were lost in me

Verse 2
You loved me
I might walk away but that I know
Some things will never let go
Inside us
Where we first discovered that still small voice
Saying true love is sometimes a choice

Bridge
Just close my eyes
I can hear you as you leave
Boxes in your arms running through the rain
Just close my eyes
And I can see
That someone else is saying your name

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Allow Me This
3/5/02

Verse 1
As strange as it sounds
As fucked up as it may be
The pain keeps you close to me
To give it up
Would just mean losing another part of you
And there's already so much I can't hold on to

Chorus
Allow me this
Don't have your touch,
Don't have your kiss
You've got a new love
The least you could leave me this

Verse 2
As wrong as it sounds
As psychologically unhealthy
Truth is still to hard for me to see
Let alone live in
When you can forget so easily my touch
When obviously it never meant that much

Bridge
Don't say to get over you
Don't say I need to move on
Don't speak to me as if you were standing inside this pain
Don't speak to me as if you feel even remotely the same
Just allow me this
This
ache that reminds me of how much I loved for you
This
ache that gives me some kind of hold you can't slip through

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Second Hardest Thing
3/5/02, 3/22/02

Verse 1
This time around
This time around we're not meant to be
We both have different dreams to find and chase
We may cross roads and find some together after all this is life not a race

Chorus
I will give you all the space you need
Even though it means its time and space to step away from me
This is the second hardest thing I've ever had to do
The first being falling in love with you

Verse 2
There's no doubt
No doubt in my mind that I loved you
Maybe even loved you in a lifetime before
Maybe in the next lifetime I can catch up with you and love you some more

Bridge
You don't need my blessing or permission
But for my own sanity
And peace of mind
I want you to know
You're free to find
Whoever or whatever completes you
Even though it can't be me
As the poets say it's only true love
When you can set it free

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Easy
3/7/02, 3/21/02

Verse 1
You want me to get angry
There's a different side you want to see
You can take my word
It's just below the surface
In a split second it would break free
But you won't get that escape hatch from me

Chorus
That would be so easy
Too easy
Why should I give you an excuse?
Or something to use
You won't get that from me
I won't make it easy

Verse 2
You want me to lash out
To make it easier and give you an out
That anger does stir
It's just below the surface
I could let go, scream and shout
But still be left in the ashes from your fall out

Bridge
Not this time
Not this time, my love
I won't let you ignore the responsibility
Of my heart and what you've done to me
It's a step away from spite
But I'd rather have you get caught by my eyes
And see me suffer

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I Don't Mind
3/7/02, 3/8/02

Verse 1
I don't mind
Not being the first in line
I know, eventually, you'll make your way to me
Eventually

I don't mind
Not having all of your time
I know, eventually, sooner or later you'll find me
Eventually

Chorus
No, I don't mind
I don't mind loving you from a distance
Whispering your name into my pillow
Though you're not sleeping there
One day you'll see, one day you'll know
That I don't mind

Chorus #2
No, I don't mind
I don't mind not having this chance
Because I think deep down we know
You can see yourself right here
Tell me when it finally starts to show
That I don't mind

Verse 2
I don't mind
That right now you're not mine
I'll rest, for a little while, in second place
To kiss your face

I don't mind
That right now is not 'our time'
I have a feeling there'll be another time and place
And I can wait
Repeat Chorus 2

Ending
I may not get to love you again
But I don't mind
I will catch up with you in the next lifetime
Your love is worth the wait
I know it will only get better with time
So, honestly, I don't mind

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Fishbowl
3/14/02, 3/15/02, 3/20/02

Verse 1
I can feel the eyes
So many people looking on
Questions arise
Will we get them right?
Will we get them wrong?
Before we know
Exactly who we are
In whatever experiment of our hearts this might be
I could lose you
You could lose me

Chorus
Let's swim away
One more time around the fishbowl
Then out of view
Into the little plastic castle
Just me and you
(repeat)

Verse 2
I can feel the eyes
And I know you can too
Questions arise
How do you find escape?
Any plan for what we do?
Surely we can find
A space that's ours
Before it's even love it can be picked apart
Could become a game
Dissected to the heart

Bridge
Any affection and all we're still trying to discover
Will be on display
The best of intentions not only pave the road to hell
They get in the way
We both understand
How quickly this can be taken out of our hands
So let's drop from the surface, swim away
Maybe buy another day

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I Want To Be With You
3/15/02

Verse 1
I want to kiss you so bad
I can taste it
Though your miles away
We share the same secret

I count the slow hours
That drip by
Can't see you soon enough
The desire stay in my eyes

Chorus
I want to be with you
I want to be with you
Buried in the sheets
Letting our kisses
Be the only words we speak
I want to be with you
I want to be with you

Verse 2
I want near you now
I'd walk away
From everything I should be doing
Just to make this stay

I bargain with God
When I'm alone
For us to have a little more time
That it's always known

Bridge
I know there's a working world
Outside the window
I know there will always be
Places to go, responsibilities
Oh, how I'd love
To just stay like this
Naked, wrapped in your kiss

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Remember This
3/19/02, 3/24/02, 3/27/02

Verse 1
How crazy this life can get
Without knowing when
We somehow give permission
To get swept away by it
Demands and needs
Don't seem to leave
Focusing on the big picture doesn't even seem like a possibility
Then into all of this, steps me

Remember this
Whenever fear creeps in
Or when moments are laced with insecurity
Remember this for me

Chorus
Remember this moment
Remember how it feels to lie beside me
Remember how I make you smile
Let this last you a little while
Remember everything from
The sound of my laughter
To the feeling of my kiss
Whatever you do
Please, remember this

Verse 2
How I want to be with you
Without complications
Together we can decide
On what we believe is true
We'll stay near
And kiss away the fear
Until we can both understand this with our own kind of certainty
Please trust in this, with me

Remember this
Whenever I'm not close
Or if you don't understand what you're meant to be
Remember this for me

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Get Home To Me
3/29/02

Verse 1
This week's felt like a year
I'm so ready to kiss you
So desperate to have you here
Telephone lines
Help pass the time
But when we hang up we're still apart
Still sleeping alone
Baby, it's time you came home

Chorus
Get on that plane
Take a train
Just get home to me
I'll rent a car
It can't be that far
Meet ya half way and see
That you get home
Get home to me

Verse 2
So nice to hear I Love You's
But I want see your face
Listen to your heart beat true
Out of my head
Back in your bed
There's absolutely no other place to be
Not sleeping alone
Baby, I gotta get you home

Bridge
Distance
Absence
What are the odds?
What are the chances?
That you miss me like I miss you
But I'm thinking, maybe,
Just maybe you do

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Communion
9/02, 10/21/02, 1/21/03, 2/11/03

Verse 1
When all could be said
Without speaking a word
Saying nothing at all
Yet still feeling heard

In long shadows
With God's voice clear
Saying all that we need
Is standing right here

Chorus
I miss our communion
The quiet union
Of your heart talking to mine
The feeling of our spirits
Together in secret
Hidden in one moment in time
Our Genesis, our beginning
Our evolution
I miss our communion

Verse 2
"Creator bless them.
Their love is enough
Draw them close to you."
That's what he said to us

In long shadows
Standing beside you
You tightened your grip
As the words rang true

Bridge
Even naked
We were never more close
Than in those moments
In our communion
When God's arms wrapped around us
Saying all we had was right there
And it could be enough

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Tidal Wave
9/16/02

Verse 1
I know you're scared
I'll admit that I am too
But that fear
Isn't stronger than my love for you
Something in my soul's core
Says you're the one I meant to be with
I could try and run away from destiny
But every lover would leave me wanting more
I'd never be complete until you were here with me

Chorus
Baby, you can't fight a tidal wave
You're the one I want
You're the one I crave
What's meant to be
Will always find a way
If the love we're losing
Is worth the love that we could save
Then come home to me
Baby, you can't fight a tidal wave

Verse 2
I know you're tired
The fight's fading from you
I can't give in
Unless I'm backed in a corner and forced to
There's so much love left to explore
Mysteries of love to find and discover
A salvation we can only find in each other's eyes
We have what some people wait their whole lives for
This is the fire that burns keeping the fight inside me alive

Bridge
There are so few things in this life
That you can hold
That you can know are true
All I know, is that I'm in love with you
You can go a million places
See a million faces
But I just know, your heart will lead you back to me
Because in my arms is where you're meant to be

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My Sin
1/15/04

My sin
Was believing
Was believing you time and time again
Letting you in

My crime
Was loving
Was loving you to far past your truth
Giving my youth

My treason
Was betraying
Was betraying only myself and my heart
That was the start

Chorus
Absolve me
Forgive me
Set me free
I ask of no one else
I ask this of myself

For my crimes
My treason
For fraying the rope
For placing my hope
Outside of the lines you colored in
For my sin

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Here
For K.M.
1/17/05, 1/20/05


Verse 1
Do you feel safer
Living somewhere between
Following your heart
Or holding onto yesterday

Do you see me
Waiting in the shadows
Outskirts of your life
If you did would you stay

The forest for the trees
Does a whole lot more than block your view
Baby, you're missing
What's right in front of you

Chorus
On the other side of maybe
On this side of you and me
Is here
Right here
I've stayed
Right here
When you wade through
Your heart's history,
Insecurities and fears
Will I still be here?

Verse 2
Do you hear me?
Your distance and silence
My heart allows
Only 'cause it's you

Do you know me
Or the limits of my love?
If so, it's a lot
To put one heart through

Can't read between lines
When what's written is clear, I don't understand
Baby, it's slipping
Right out of your hands

Chorus

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Come, Let Me Love You
1/19/05, 1/20/05,2/4/05,2/9/05

Verse 1
Riding on my radio
Did you guess or did you know
My red-blooded heart's beating true
On my way to you
Finally sleeping in your arms
I'll believe your charms
I believe and you take my heart
Stolen by your grin
So driving the night, singing into the wind
Songs I didn't write
But still feel right
Can't wait to kiss your day away
When I say

Chorus
Come, let me love you
Come, baby, let me love you
No expectations, no demands
Just my mouth, your lips
Your arms, my hands
Wrap yourself in me
I'll wrap myself in you
Close your eyes and see
Sometimes what's real, can also what's true
Come, baby, let me love you

Verse 2
If we gotta go to work
I wanna go wearing your shirt
Want you to go, tasting me on your lips
Your smile, my secret
We'll both spend the nine to five
Waiting to come alive
Tonight, under the covers
Under your touch
I've never wanted anything this much
Lost with you in the night
It just feels right
When you kiss the day away
When you say

Bridge
I love you standing naked
The morning sun sneaks in and you blink
Even in flannel sheets
This bed gets cold faster than you'd think
Call in late, baby, let the cat outside
Crawl to me, baby, I'll let you inside
Lets stay
Just this way
For another hour
For the day
And I say

Chorus

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Almost Valentine
1/28/05, 2/1/05

Verse 1
Here we are
Five weeks and two steps forward, three behind
How little has changed
In how we measure "Us" and when we find the time
To just be alone
To know we're ok, we're fine
We're back where we were
Before I knew your name and you knew mine

Chorus
So close
To being loved by you
So close
To being mine
But the words "I love you"
Ran to opposite sides of the room
So close
But gone too soon
So close to being mine
We were so close this time
My love, my almost valentine

Verse 2
I let go
Though it still doesn't seem to come easily
Practice making perfect
Is much harder when I sleep with possibility
Of having you here
Close as the air, inside of me
The beginning was the end
Did you know then, could you even see

Chorus

Bridge
So many of the voices
Running in my head
Say I was meant to love you
While others whisper that
The deepest loves can still be misled
It's a misstep of my heart this time
You can't force stars to align

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